Hi, this is the first time that I am doing a post without pictures HAHA.
So I recently got addicted to listening to old Chinese songs again...
They brought me back to the times when I was just an innocent girl; everyday I would just go home after school and play the online game Audition - the game that introduced me to these songs: Always Online and 不潮不用花钱 by JJ Lin and nowadays when I listened to these songs they immediately bring back the memories of myself playing the game like an addict HAHA.
Then there were some Chinese songs that I chanced upon on the radio when my mom was cooking lunch while I was just playing in the living room with my Barbie Dolls and PlayDough - songs like 下雨天 by 南拳妈妈，曹操 by JJ Lin, 热带雨林 by S.H.E and of course there are many more.
Of course, I'll never forget how I got introduced to Jay Chou's songs by my primary school friend who bought the whole album and her mother will just play it on the big CD player at the corner of her living room. Songs like 阳关宅男，七里香，我不配... all by Jay Chou. I'll think of the times that I'll go to her house to have lunch in between lessons as she stays right opposite the school and her mom will cook my favourite instant noodle 统一面 (till today it is still my favourite) and times like these I can lick the whole bowl clean despite my ultra small appetite.
Moving on, there were songs like Fly Away, 我们的爱, Lydia by F.I.R which I will sing when I go back to Malaysia with my cousin at her house as she has the whole Karoke Set. We will sing our lungs out as if the neighbours are deaf to our out-of-pitch singing HAHAHA. Together with these songs, there are some like 没有如果 and 会呼吸的痛 by 梁静茹 which I will sing when I am at the KTV with my friends back then.
There were also songs like 暗恋 and 就是爱你 by David Tao where it brings me back to the time when I was in my lower secondary school like and occasionally I'll have some fantasies about a handsome guy I saw on the MRT singing these 2 songs for me (okay this is embarrassing).
Then there were some songs like 一眼万年 by S.H.E and some are the OSTs from my favourite ancient chinese dramas like Chinese Paladin 仙剑奇侠传 which I was totally crazy over during my primary and secondary school days.
As I grew up, I stopped listening to these chinese songs as well as new ones and I forced myself to listen to English Pop songs ever since my upper secondary school days. I did so because the English Pop wave was all around me and following that, I went to ACJC which is a super ultra full of English culture school. I stopped watching chinese dramas and listening to chinese songs because I felt judged - people will often call me cheena, ask me why was I so chinese when I told them about how I was like last time and I felt sad at times.
So to how I went back to reminisce these old songs, because my friend was playing the JJ Lin songs in the study room and alot, ALOT of memories of my childhood came back. I am being rather emotional now because these songs bring me back to the times, those moments that are NEVER going to happen AGAIN.
Many things have changed, many people have left, and now I have lesser time with my parents - gone were the days my mom cooks and I stay in the living room watching my cartoon and the audio overlapped with the Chinese songs played on the radio..
For the sake of acceptance, I abandoned my passion and forced myself into something that wasn't me. I didn't want it, but I felt like I have to.
I hate growing up, I hate getting into complicated situations, and being responsible for every single thing I did.
"Remember when we were kids and couldn't wait to grow up..."
